Hebrews 11:8- "By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to a place that he was to receive an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going."
Hey! I honestly miss writing on here so much. Needless to say, it has been the most intense few months of my life, and I am waiting on God more every day with how to handle a lot of the situations I am presently dealing with. Through all of this though, I have learned so much. I have learned what it means to be patient, obedient, and trusting. I have learned what true fellowship looks like, and how to help others through similar circumstances. I have learned what the true meaning of selfless faith looks like.
Faith is one of those words that is way overused and misunderstood. I have talked about childlike faith before a couple of months ago; but recently I have grown so much in my true understanding of it. In Hebrews, there are literal guidelines that tell us exactly what faith consists of. Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen, the understanding that the universe was created by the Word of God, and the knowing that what is seen was not made of things visible.
The first time I read that, I truly thought I understood what it was saying; but God made me look a little deeper, not just by reading it, but by putting me in literal circumstances that required me to give Him my complete trust. As I continued reading in Hebrews, I came across this verse, along with another whole section of examples of godly faith. Abraham was asked to completely trust God and go out, having no knowledge of where he was being led to. I know that if it had been me, I would have asked a lot of questions. I would have wanted to know how safe I would be, and ultimately where my destination was. Yet, I have come to realize that questions play no part in faith. They actually destroy faith all together. Imagine a little girl standing on a table, prepared to jump into her father's arms. When he tells her to jump, she does not stop to ask if he will catch her, she just jumps and has total faith that he will save her from the ground. This is what Jesus asks us to do on a daily basis, and you would think that since He is our Creator, the one who loves us above anyone else, the one who knows our past, present, and future, He above all would be worthy of gaining every ounce of trust and faith for our wellbeing, yet somehow we still struggle to give it to Him.
I need to hear this just as much as everyone does. I am always asking questions. I constantly want to know the full picture. This is where the word "surrender" comes in. Biblically, "surrender" means to give up what you want, so that God can fully live through you. If you surrender your thoughts to Him, there will be no more questions. If you surrender your actions to Him, you will not have to worry about doing anything against His will for you. If you surrender yourself completely to Him, He will give you the strength and peace to get through the circumstances that require so much of your faith. This is obviously much easier said than done. We, as humans, will always question God. And the best part is, He understands, and works every day to show you how to lean on Him further. Having questions is okay, because it teaches you how to trust. We will never have all of the answers.
The only way I have learned to surrender is by waiting on God. Through waiting, I have seen Him answer prayers like never before, bring people I needed into my life, and strengthen me to help others come to Him. Slowly, I have given Him every aspect of my life, and only then have I seen my questions turn into hope, and my fear turn into love for the One who holds my life in His hands.
In Psalm 62:5, it says, "For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from Him." I love that it says to wait in silence. That means there is no room for questions or doubts. There is only room for the hope He gives you. The more faith you give to Him, the farther He will ask you to leap. Life will continue to give you circumstances that seem impossible, yet in those moments of complete fear and doubt, He is teaching you how to have "conviction of things not seen". He is always there, and the easiest thing you can do is trust that His plan for you is so much greater than what you had planned for yourself.
The only reason Abraham was able to go out not knowing where He was going, was because he knew He had a big God who wrote his path down before he began walking. The only reason we are able to face our circumstances everyday, is because our God has already written our story, regardless of how many questions we asked, or how many doubts we had. Have faith that Jesus knows what He is doing. Wait on His plan for your life. I have seen Him do some incredible things through what seems like an unbearable tragedy in my own life, and He can do that for you as well.
Go out, seeing Him who is invisible.